in need of study

all this time i have been spending cleaning up, packing, and dealing with decisions in, "financial strife," i have forgotten to...read? it's been a month since i have actually read anything that comes in a form of binding. well, i have read magazines, but i am talking about book binding....literature at best, fiction, truths, life tales, antic dotes, love stories, make ups, tall tales, fantasies, dreams.....ya, i am having a crisis here - to the point where i feel lost...i picked up a book tonight as it passed into a box and i felt a despairing gasp creep onto my beingness. guess, you know what i will do soon...so, you reader friends, any suggestions?

as for now, take a look

at my library thing account!

before i picked up the book of reminding intellect neglect, i had a striking paranoia anxiety at the computer. it's not much to get into, just me, not really sure of what i am sure of. when i feel uneasy...or ...or in a moment of suspicion...or in the depths of disappointments...i can act hastily. i stopped breathed, started laundry, and kept busy. and then i thought about my mom! oh this is gooooooooooood! she is getting out of the hospital on saturday! two whole months and she will be back on her feet (calling me for sure when something is on her mind!) and I am so happy about it...Quite a relief. Some best news too since it seems that I am stricken with strife at no end...strifes in many ways...one being that sprung my anxiety...i am getting better at trusting....just need to let go and be open. so, i tell myself no need to jump up and scream! yup, i am getting better at trusting when it's the only thing tangible in a situation that is untouchable......

oh and you know what's better?

jean says at the keys!

now, if i can just get this resume and cover letter down for the upper position at work, i will be merry.

-jeanserhenderforeverreyesays