things of st paul i will miss

ginko coffeehouse (not for the music they play). i will miss their vegan scones and dark roast coffee. I will miss the walk to the coffeehouse and I will miss the walk back with my coffee in hand.
the cute librarian at the hamline/midway location.


I WILL NOT miss Snelling/University. Hellishly always busy. I hate that intersection and I try to avoid it all costs.

i am ready to get back to something normal (my normal).

"kiss kiss molly's lips"

my apartment looks like i am moving? it's a disaster really. i need some of my own normalcy back. i am so looking forward to next week when i see a little bit of a routine. creatively, i am just having a hard time.
but i have been enjoying music; some songs-
dear nora - since you went away
acid house kings - paris
the brunettes - the record store
stereolab - nothing to do with me
the gentle waves - falling from grace

i really do love dear nora.

they live in long beach now? that's crazy. i miss that place i called home.

streets of fire - the new pornographers.
molly's lips - the vaselines (yes!)

too much twee, seriously!

ok, here she goes

the actual no one belongs here more than you site that everyone should click at

"we are in the land of lonely West Coast weirdos"

No One Belongs Here More Than You.

songs of the day:

Chiffons - One Fine Day (Live in Pittsburg)
The Raindrops - It's so Wonderful
Little Eva - Follow the Wind

may 28th is not just memorial day; for me.

moving friday.

I am excited, because I am working just three days this week. This move may be kinda easy. Anyone wanna come out and help on friday and get some things over to my new place? Please say yes.

thee ohsees

Maybe one of my favorite bands now. Saw them last night at Memory Lanes.


whitejazz opened.

I have a geetar and a keyboard. I will rule the world, he says...

Sorta feels like how this sounds, at high volume, with your headphones on. you know what i mean, i sing!

Control.

opened at cannes on the 17th.

Brand Upon the Brain.

i missed the live show of this in chicago. hope the film makes it to mpls sometime soooooon.

love is like an abacus?

chiffons - sweet talkin guy
neil young - mr. soul
johnny cash - gree, green grass of home
paul simon - me and julio down by the school yard
paul simon - me and julio down by the school yard (twice, ha!)
the kinks - end of the season
strawberry story - buttercups and daisys
suburban kids with biblical names - funeral face
another sunny day - the centre of my little world
the gentle waves - let the good times begin
loons - ne sois pas si bete
april march - cet air-la
talulah gosh - just a dream
black tambourine - for ex-lovers only
the monochrome set - adeste fideles
stereolab - transona five
the velvet underground - after hours
lee hazelwood - run boy run
??? - (just like an) abacus (((singer unknow, dunno whoooooooo ssssssiings this!!!)))))))
Rindaldi sings - Miles away (new singer guy iiiiii liiiiiiike) yup.
The Crystals - Da Doo Ron Ron

this morning, minnesota is like the tropics!

a favorite to hail from mpls,

" The quirky universe of The Electric Arc Radio Show."

student planner

My student planner 1997-1998.



sept 20, 1997
cleaned room
rode bikes to jon's house with justin
linzy met us at del taco
went to my house and watched pulp fiction
played chinese checkers

sept 21, 1997
watched 8 hours of anne of green gables and anne of avonlea
twins came over and we finished our lab report

sept 22, 1997
math
english - get catcher in the rye
linzy went to the grocery store
talked to adam on the phone...he's really sensitive.

sept 23, 1997
math
read pg 1-16 of catcher in the rye
began reading 'metamorphasis" franz kafka.

sept 24, 1997
student club idea: underclass

sept 26, 1997
saw the game with adam, justin, linzy, and the twins
went to vinyl and got a beck 7" i don't have

sept 27, 1997
saw young pioneers in pasadena

sept 28, 1997
ween
at the el rey
played for almost 3 hrs

oct 1, 1997
today was a bad day
justin went w/me to buy my mom a bday gift
we got j-walking tickets

in need of study

all this time i have been spending cleaning up, packing, and dealing with decisions in, "financial strife," i have forgotten to...read? it's been a month since i have actually read anything that comes in a form of binding. well, i have read magazines, but i am talking about book binding....literature at best, fiction, truths, life tales, antic dotes, love stories, make ups, tall tales, fantasies, dreams.....ya, i am having a crisis here - to the point where i feel lost...i picked up a book tonight as it passed into a box and i felt a despairing gasp creep onto my beingness. guess, you know what i will do soon...so, you reader friends, any suggestions?

as for now, take a look

at my library thing account!

before i picked up the book of reminding intellect neglect, i had a striking paranoia anxiety at the computer. it's not much to get into, just me, not really sure of what i am sure of. when i feel uneasy...or ...or in a moment of suspicion...or in the depths of disappointments...i can act hastily. i stopped breathed, started laundry, and kept busy. and then i thought about my mom! oh this is gooooooooooood! she is getting out of the hospital on saturday! two whole months and she will be back on her feet (calling me for sure when something is on her mind!) and I am so happy about it...Quite a relief. Some best news too since it seems that I am stricken with strife at no end...strifes in many ways...one being that sprung my anxiety...i am getting better at trusting....just need to let go and be open. so, i tell myself no need to jump up and scream! yup, i am getting better at trusting when it's the only thing tangible in a situation that is untouchable......

oh and you know what's better?

jean says at the keys!

now, if i can just get this resume and cover letter down for the upper position at work, i will be merry.

-jeanserhenderforeverreyesays

all the way to your island of rain

It's only natural that I start up one of these again. to mark a new dawning.

Life is moving, changing, and woohoo, starting all over.

My life
in two year tides
presents itself again. May 28 is my two years in Minnesota.

St. Paul has been nice to me.

keep going
to where my life leads.

i say hullo
only cause it's just over the river. to mpls.

ps mr. andrew bird was aaaaaammmaaazzing!

pps i want to live on an island where it rains, rains, rains.